sweet saturday

it's late but i thought i should let you all know that my brother Dale arrived safely into Kelowna. My buddy, from Brandon years(Rod Myers), picked him up at the airport and we have had a great visit already. wow! it is so special to have him here at this time. I will try to behave while he is here so he doesn't have to much to do to look after me.
I continue to have really good days physically and really enjoyed my shower. I am getting a little fed up with taking medication.(so annoying) Still at same motel, now until Friday. Then we will be at the cancer lodge, then we have decided to come back to the suite at the Motel. Esther will be here with me for those last to weeks.
So, keep praying and believing!
Thanks so much for all of your support!
Tim

Sept.29

Yes, i just finished my 2nd week of treatment and all is well. I feel great! In fact, if i feel this good next friday, my brother and i will rent a car and drive to WL for the long weekend. That would be awesome! To be home with family and friends for thanksgiving, what a treat!
I had such a great day yesterday. This sweet couple came over and shared some exciting stories with me about how God is moving in their lives. Then, they prayed for me and shared more special scriptures with me. Then in the evening, i went to a Healing Walkin Clinic. What a special place. This is set up like a regular walkin clinic. You sign in and get called when it is your time for the "doctor" to see you. So, they take you down the hallway and into a small room. Then you find yourself with 3 other people. The one guy introduces himself and we start talking about what has been happening in my life. I tell them my story, they share scripture and personal experience, then they ask if they can pray for me. They pray for me and give me communion. Before i leave, they encourage me and invite me to come again if i'm in the area. What a cool time. Just think, people making themselves available to pray for others. What an idea, what an opportunity. Practical Christianity. I love it! So, i am so encouraged and thankful for all of our prayer support.
Speaking of support, friends who used to live in WL called the motel we are in and paid for the whole week. How cool is that?! See, we are blessed!
What can i say, oh i know. Today was great at the cancer clinic. I had such opportunity to share with people in the waiting room. I was so pumped! God is so awesome! Plus, Don Richmond stopped by to share and pray for me. He is not pastoring anymore but is fulltime with Hockey Ministries International. So, he is chaplin for the BCHL expansion team the WESTSIDE WARRIORS. Plus, he is heading up hockey chaplincy throughout the province. That's so neat!
Well, there is a little update.
Love you all,
Tim

Hello Hello

Thank you Lord! It was a great day today.Treatment went smooth and i am resting well.
Al went home today. He was a great help around here for me. I moved into the Siesta Motel yesterday. It just wasn't fair for the Smid's to put up with all the traffic and schedule i created. I had to give them a break. I shared the idea with Esther and she was thinking the same thing. Special thanks to the Smid's for helping me through the first and worst week. They are such special people!
The phone number here is 250-763-5013. room 150. I will be here until the Cancer Lodge opening for me on October 3. Esther is here until tomorrow, and an RN, Linda Nordick will be coming to check up on me and make sure i am behaving. Then my brother Dale arrives on Saturday.
So, all is flowing quite smoothly now. I asked the staff in the radiation room if they ever saw the movie Princess Bride. They said yes and asked why. Of course, i had to say that i always think of the torture chamber in that movie when i come for treatment. They said they have been called worse so i guess it went over ok.
I just started a new med to help with reducing the swelling after treatments. I hope it works good because we are praying for a complete reduction and elimination. Do i here an Amen?
In HIs Grip,
Tim

Good Eye Mates

We are just kicking back right now, watching the Toronto Blue Jays get beat by Detroit. I had my treatment today but, wow, for some reason, it really wiped me out. Some days I get crazy spastic type reflexes either when i lay down or just sit around. This is one of those days. It gets pretty weird when you can freak yourself out. The pain team increased my meds to help with this, but i hate feeling like an experiment. I don't know, and the weird thing is that the doctor doesn't either. Esther and i met with the doctor today. It was my first time seeing the radiation doctor since coming down here because he was away last week. It was an ok meeting, but once again,there is no hope from that side of the table. Once again, we are strongly reminded that our hope for healing is in the Lord. We are so thankful for all the Lord has done for us. Seeya,
Tim

Esther Surprise

I had quite a ride yesterday with my buddy Al taking charge. Thanks so much Al for taking the time to come here and give a helping hand in this way. Speaqking of rides, Al drives a wheelchair something like he drives his car.(but he's learning to corner a little slower now and slow down for sleed bumps, crarks, etc..)Actually, i think it's helping to me to not complain so much, because we do have a lot of laughs.
But, then again, laughing can be quite painful. Somehow, we got through the day and still had a good laugh!
Esther showed up yesterday afternoon for to visit for a few days. She brought, our boarder, Gean along to say Hi and then he went to stay and visit with other friends.
Esther and I are still trying to get clear direction as to the specific food program we are going to implement. We do know for sure that it is going to be largely raw foods. There are alot of great programs that are out there and a good number seem to agree on the raw foods part as being very significant.
Anyhow, I have to get ready for todays treatment so i 'll go now. Yesterday went quite smooth and i had a very good sleep.
Talk to you loater,
Tim

Week 2

Yes, it is week 2 and Al is here to take me to the clinic. He said i look good compared to what he thought i was going to look like.(thanks Al) I feel good and i thank God for that. I had a good sleep last night, even though my cathator kept threatening to slip out, so i rigged up quite a little system to get me through the night.
My good leg(right leg) is starting to have more negative symptoms like the left leg.
Please pray for protection of the limbs and other body parts as i continue with the
treatment.
I have been doing a lot of reading lately related to what i am going through. I am getting more excited about pumping the healing foods into my body. It just makes sense. If it makes sense to me, i guess that means i have to apply it to my life(but it is so hard). Ok, i'm kidding, it's not hard. I haven't drank a pop since Aug.9.
I don't even miss it. Water has become my best friend.(without too much side affects)
Hey, talk to ya soon,
Timp

Another Round

Hey Ya'll,
Tomorrow will be round 2 of treatment here in Kelowna. I am trusting for a much smoother week due to getting some of the kinks out and understanding more about what is going on.My stay at the Smid's has been great. Joel left for WL today and Al will be here in the morning. My sitter showed up on time and we have had a nice day visiting. Grandma Hale dropped by and joined in on the visit as well.(of course, she threw a prayer meeting into the visit before she left, which was great!)
I had a nice visit with Esther on the phone in the morning. We sure are one busy family.(and we will be together sooner than planned. It must be love!)
Anyhow, John 14:27 says "Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you."
Back in August, when i was laying on my hospital bed in Kamloops, i can remember thinking about the huge peace that God had give me just before the operation. I was so full of His peace and it felt so good, especially in the situation i found myself in. Without peace, one cannot experience the joy of the Lord. How can you have hope without His peace? Don't forget love! Love makes it all flow in the right direction.
Oh ya, the Bible says that "God is Love" That's right! It all makes sense when you add the Lord to the equation. If you figured that all out, you must have faith! Sweet!
Bye for now,
Tim
PS Thanks Alex for the twolves update.

day 5 complete

what's going on? did you have a full day? I sure did! Plus, i didn't get sick today!
(now there's a bonus) I really am trying to stay away from meds, but that one today was a way better than Gravol.
Treatment was behind schedule today so guess what i did.1)draw 2)read the crossword puzzle or 3)talk to someone who was waiting for treatment as well.If you said 3)then you have just earned the right to blog me back to tell me you got it right!
Congratulations!!Sweet!!and all of that.....
So, ya, i talked to this guy who was waiting and he is finished his treatment in 8 more sessions. Then his wife came around the corner and i got to meet her and their two kids. So, you are right again, i didn't let them off easy.We kept talking and amongst a whole lot of other stuff found out that they were told by a pastor up North to say hi to tim wade if they met me at the clinic. It was so much fun! We will be trying to get together next week before they leave and there is so much more to tell later.
I had a surprise visit from Karen Leblanc and Matthew Okimi stopped in on his way home to Toronto. First thing in the morning, Corwin and Ryan stopped in as well.
Word is out that Grandma Hale is swinging by tomorrow.(i've got some laundry for her to do.) I hope she doesn't read this until Sunday.
Hey, bye
Tim
PS Hi Honey,I miss you and look forward to seeing you soon. Thanks so much for keeping things under control on the home front. I am so blessed having you as my wonderful wife. Over 25 years already! Oh ya, thanks for the extra underwear you packed me. Oh, i started getting carried away again. I forgot this was the blog and not email. Bye...........

Day 5

Hi! What a beautiful day today! The sun is shining brightly and the fresh air coming through the window feels so nice. Well,the "One day at a time" theme still strong on my heart. Today is the end of the first week of treatment. PTL! Yes, i am thankful for each new day and the sooner a bunch of new days go by, the better!
I just had a shower and it felt so good. Joel does a good job of getting things set up for me. Maybe Joel will want to go into the medical field after going through this with me here at the hospital and all. I know one thing, he sure loves going through all the cupboards in the doctor's offices and finds new things to goof around with. Joel thought it was so cool that one of our nurses left work with a skateboard. So, of course the next day i had to ask her if it was hers. Maybe we can start an afterschool skater club at the clinic.(right next to the hospital)Sweet!
I love this scipture,"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles;they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. Teach me Lord to wait. Is.40:31 It is that waiting part that seems so challenging to do,but at the same time it is the most important part.

Lord, help me to wait, help me to slow it all down, help my mind to slow down,
so that i can feel your presence in a greater way,so i can hear you more clearly,
so i can extend a hand to the next one you want me to. Amen

Later,
Tim

more day 4

well, what( an interesting meeting with the pain team. Talk about medicine. MY HEAD STARTED SPINNING!That was just from hereing some of the names of the meds! They say that over the next couple of days i should start to feel the meds helping.(the next couple of days?)
So, please keep those prayers coming.
Grandma Hale is going to drop by to visit on Sunday so that will be nice too. It's starting to look like a great sunday.
Day 5 tommorrow, can you believe it? Sometimes it flies and sometimes it plugs along.
Putting one day at a time is so important to me right now.(and always should be)
Lord, please help me to rely on You more each new day.
In His Grip,
Tim

Day 4

Hi everyone! Just touching base before i head off to t4. Then i have a special meeting with a pain management team. It sounds like this will be a very valuable meting for me. Obviously, i kept complaining about pain, then 2 awesome nurses pulled a few strings and set me up with this meeting.(they got into a little trouble for not following protocol but i did say thank you.)
I have a very weak stomach. I'm not even at the hospital yet, and i am already starting to feel sick.(that is so frustrating)
Esther called again this morning and shared some great scripture with me and prayed for me. Thanks honey bunny! of course, i feel a little more homesick now, but i'll
hang in there.
Someone is coming over to spend the day with me on Sunday now. Our church superintendent called Evangel church and they arranged to have someone come over. Cool eh! Now, should i be me to this kind person or should i for fun pretend to be someone totally different and come from the Yukon? Just thought I'd ask, cause many of you know that i struggle with thoughts like this.
Joel continues to be such a big help to me. Wow! Thanks again Joel for all of your patience and thoughtfulness!
There is a party a the Smid residence tonight. Corwin's dad is having a birthday party. So, we get to party with them. I hope i don't get to rowdy.
Well, i must tidy up and make myself somewhat presentable so bye for now,
Tim

28 more

Good day to you all,
Day 2 of treatment went by so much smoother.(about an hour later, i started getting quite the upset stomach and it lasted til about midnight.) Both days were quite unique. So, i am hoping and praying for another unique day in a more positive way.
I need to find someone in the Kelowna area who can be with me all day sunday. My son will be going home and the Smid's will be away until sunday night. Please call my cell if you can help out.(250-303-1429)
Well, got to go,
i'll try to add more later today,
Tim

not ready

Ok, i have to admit that i was not ready for day one at the clinic.(not at all)
Well, we got to Kelowna safely yesterday.(Good driving Joel!)Then today was day one of treatment. I was sicker before i even got to the clinic. I have a very weak stomach and i think everything went goofy from the start. I didn't have the meds to keep my tummy calm, plus the radiation machine camera was putting out fuzzy photos.
So, instead of 15 minutes, i was laying flat on a sheet of steel for over an hour.
(and i wasn't allowed to move)Everyone kept apologizing to me through it all, but
i just wanted out of there.(one radiation nurse said i had alot of gas in my stomach which made it difficult to line up the equipment so they had to keep doing it over to make sure it was right.ok.) I was thrilled to get out of there. 29 more to go.
That's the most i've ever prayed in a hospital before.
Anyhow, tomorrow should be better.
Later, Tim
PS Please keep those prayers coming strong. Thanks.

Heading out

Well, i'm just about ready to head out to Kelowna for treatment. My son, Joel, is taking me down for the first week, then Al Phipps is planning to join me for a week.
I HAVE TO SAY THAT I AM NOT AT ALL EXCITED ABOUT GETTING THE TREATMENT, but i am excited about getting better. So many people have told me that they are praying and some even fasting for this healing. I am so blessed with so many people around me who care. I am looking forward to meeting people in Kelowna and sharing with them about the amazing love i experience every day from the Lord through so many ways.
I am praying that this 6 week period goes by real fast so i can get back to my family and friends in Williams Lake.
I had a nice chat with my brother, Bruce from Winnipeg yesterday. My other brother, Dale, from Brandon, will be able to join me in Kelowna for about 10 days.
I'll have a computer in Kelowna, so i am planning to keep you informed as to the daily happenings, but if i do miss some days, it's only because i'm snoozing.
You all are very valuable to me and i pray that you are blessed and having a great fall season. Thanks again for keeping in touch and we'll chat soon.
Love and prayers,
Tim

Good morning

If i don't get my blog done during the day i seem to let it roll until the next day.(sorry about that) I wasn't out of bed yet yesterday when this guy came to visit. He came to tell me that he bought a 2001 24 passenger diesel Ford van for the YFC ministry. That was amazing! He said that he read in our newsletter that we were looking for one to continue to develop the mission trips and the ministry overall.
What a great blessing! I was so excited! He even put the insurance on for a year!
Esther is busy getting all of my stuff ready to go to Kelowna Sunday. Yes, there is always so much to think about and to do. I have made some great connections in the Kelowna area recently so it will be good for me to have those special connections while down there. I can't remember if I mentioned that last time there, I found out that this associate pastor of a church in Kelowna was someone i knew in my home town
Virden, Manitoba. We used to go to the same kids Bible clubs. So, I connected with him and we had a great lunch together, visiting and munching down. That is so cool!
Hey, you all be good and chat at ya later.

Different direction

Well, sorry i missed yesterday but it really was a tough one. As much as I have felt the raw food diet something i need to do, the peace has never been there regarding the timing of doing it. Some of you might think that is strange but i have to do what i believe i have to do(and i have a peace about it) Anyhow, i resheduled my treatments at the cancer clinic in Kelowna for monday, Sept.18. The treatment is radiation to the spine(without having to go through other organs, and pill form small dose chemo.)I shiver saying those words together but somehow i feel that is what i have to do. I know this causes challenges for people who i love but i am still trusting God through all of this.Then after the 6 weeks of treatment I will be home and focusing on the raw food diet. The small fibers left in the spine, will be rooted out by the raw foods and a big lifestyle change will be taking place in many ways. Thank you for your continued prayers. Esther is working on the food prep and finding of all the foods for this diet. So when i get home she will be a real master at the juicer.(people from our church donated money to the church to help us so they bought us a serious juicer.)Thank you Lord!
So, we have had to do some adjusting to now focus on me leaving on Sunday. The next few days should be quite interesting to say the least. We continue to focus on where our true hope comes from and of course that is on the Lord. I would love to visit people in the Kelowna area when down there. My cell phone number is 2503031429.I will be blogging from there hopefully every day. Please pray for strength while going through treatment and Lord let the healing flow. Also, please be praying that my family stuff goes smoothly while away. I love my family so much. They have been such a huge blessing to me!
With much love and prayers,
Tim

Smile Day

Hey, smile, you are on candid camera! Isn't that a great show? Of course it is.
I love the laughs that come from watching that show. I had an email sent to me that was a take off from that show.(I wanted to laugh like a wild man, but remember, it really hurts when I laugh so I grunt and grin in strange ways. Why not?) Speaking of grinning, I went to see the our family dentist today.(another big outing) Anyhow, Dr. Elmer had a good look and agreed that I need a mouth guard.(not for hockey this year, but to help stop my teeth clinching at night.) He figured it out in a different way than I did. Here's my way: aside from the pain and inability to open my mouth more than an inch most days lately, I woke up in the middle of the night and caught myself in the act. I was clinching so hard, it was hilarious! I mean, if you would have seem the facial, jaw wrestling taking place, you would have been impressed. I know I was, and also somewhat shocked at the same time!
Tomorrow, we start on the raw food program. I hope that I don't get looking too good through this program. I always feel bad when people around me get so jealous of this body God has given me. Well, it's ok, cause I understand and love you all.
We were so blessed with an awesome juicer yesterday. I'll let you know how good it works as the days go by. I can't wait to let you know more about this new food program too.
Well, nighty, nighty,
Tim

9/11

Is everyone behavin out there? How are you doing?
I am laying around most of the time, wondering what is next. To be honest, so often this whole thing just doesn't seem real.(then I go to get out of bed and find myself connected to a hose and bag,reality sinks in quick. That's weird!) But really, most of the time, I am feeling pretty good. The community nurse came by today to give us some necessary supplies to help keep things happening. The nurses have all been so good to me. They have been such a blessing! Next week, we have some Home Care help coming in to give Esther a break. Our son, Josiah, broke his foot on Sunday so it adds to all the extra for Esther(she really needs to get out of here for awhile) I am one wild patient!.(Don't tell my Board of Directors, but I am still getting lots of work done. Planning, connecting by phone, etc) God is so Good! The youth centre opened today with new volunteers. Awesome!
Anyhow,
See ya,
Tim

Hey Y'all!

What's happening? I was in bed most of the day and I just couldn't get it together to blog. Sorry about that. Our friend ,Steve, is here this weekend from Grande Prairie to make sure we are all behavin.(especially Esther) I sure keep getting more great verses sent to me by way of the blog. Thanks again. I keep hearing great things about YFC/WL. Cecile James is doing a great job of connecting with people and plugging them into volunteer positions in the youth centre. I am so thankful for the willingness of people to plug in and meet the need. The kids who come to the program are going to really benefit from the fresh new energetic people to connect with(of course, they will benefit from the veterans too.) We always pray for the love of God to shine and truly impact the kids who get involved.
Andy Harrington, the ED for Greater Vancouver YFC, has commited to come up in December and speak at our annual youth Christmas "Whiteout" event. That's going to be an awesome event. If you are a youth leader in the Williams Lake area, feel free to call the youth pastor at Calvary church,Corwin Smid, for more details.392-5324.
Anyhow, talk to you soon.
Love and prayers,
Tim

Time and Again

OK, it's so late again. I can't believe how fast this day has flown by.
Awesome time visiting again today. Learning lots(wow, could it be?). Pain is up alittle for me right now, probably because of the travel days and long days. But, I had a friend come over and give me a hair cut today,so that it's not too painful for everyone else around me.
People keep popping by to pray and visit. I sure love that! Thanks again for all of the comments on the blog. The phone calls are awesome too. It has been such a huge encouragement having all of the input from you all. Seriously!
***For the record, it looks like we will be postponing the the treatment in Kelowna that was scheduled for Sept. 18.(I even talked to the doctor down there to give him the heads up and he totally understands) Esther and I will be starting a 90 day food program asap. to kick this crazy tumor in the butt big-time. It might seem a bit wacky to switch treatment plans at this time, but when you feel right about it, you just go and do it. We are still trusting the Lord in a big way! Powerful scriptures are all through God's Word about His healing touch. We have been so blessed by that too, so keep sending the scriptures.(please)
OK, later,
Tim

Hi again!

So, I'm back home again and trying to rest up for the next stage. I am supposed to be in Kalowna still on Sept. 18 to start treatment.
Through a friend, we have had contact with a Naturpathic doctor in Alberta who has had incredible success in fighting cancer through a special Raw Foods 90 day plan. So I am praying for direction at this time. The weird thing is that Esther and I met this doctor 25 years ago through a totally different friend. We didn't even know it was the same guy until the next day. Anyhow, keep praying!
Wow i sure have talked lots lately to old friends from all over. (and some cool comments from others from days gone by.) Thats awsome!

In His Grip, Tim

Tims away

Tims away in Kelowna for CT scans and MRIs.He will be able to see the picutres tomorrow. He'll be home tomorrow night and hopes to send an update with the details.Thanks for your prayers and encouraging words!

monday mems

Howdy Partners,
I understand our YFC National Board is meeting this week and continuing with the topic of hiring a new National Director. I will be praying for you all as you meet and deal with this special item.
I had a call yesterday from the Cariboo Advisor editor. He was calling to find out how things were going and asked if he could print his findings. I said, "of course you can." It's so encouraging to know that people care! I also say,"we are believeing for a miracle and the more people praying, the better."(ok, I am being selfish but i think it's for a good purpose."
I rested up most of the day getting ready for the trip to Kelowna tomorrow for an MRI and another ct scan. Then they do their final prep to get ready for treatment on the 18th. I am hoping they can move treatment up a few days.(PLEASE)
The guy from the Cancer Society in town, Mark Hamm came by to chat. He said he was quite sure that the Society would beable to help us out financially. So, that was a blessing! Everythng is coming together so good! We are so thankful to the Lord for the different ways He is providing all we need!
Well, it's off to Kelowna tomorrow.
Bye for now,
Tim

sunday prayers

What a great day for prayer! The Bunn sisters finished their visit with us by praying up a storm. That was awesome! It is always extra special when people lead out in prayer during a visit. Also, people keep saying that they feel a real peace when they come over to visit. When you know this household and what goes on each day, peace isn't usually the word to describe it. But, when God pours out His peace, it is quite obvious! Cool eh?!
Then some other friends came over later and before they left, it was "we really want to pray for you." and i said, "Go for it" "let's do it." So another great time was had by all.
I hope you all had a great day. It was a great day here.
Bye for now,
Tim
ps. here are some great verses for the day. Romans 12:9-12 says "Love must be sincere. Hate what is evil;cling to what is good. Be devoted to one another in brotherly love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer."

silly saturday

Hey, what a day we had around here. All 3 Bunn girls drove from Manitoba to visit for a couple of days. They came with Grandpa and ma for supper and we had such a nice visit together. All 3 sisters used to room and board with us at different times when I was 10 through 18 years old.
Going through something like this sure opens your eyes to all the wonderful people one has around. I had a phone call from my buddy Donny, who I used to work with in a group home for youth. It is amazing how close I feel to people who I hardly ever hear from due to the different directions we take in life. I feel so strongly that it is so important to carve out time for friends and family in our busy lifestyles. That's one thing that Esther and I feel so good about. We have done so many things together over the years and alot of the time it involved visiting family and friends that tend to be far away.(most of you probably thought that we just wanted free food and a place to stay.) No, we actually wanted to visit. Weird eh?
Speaking of visiting, I have had great visits right here over the past 12 days or so. Visiting is great!
Thank the Lord for the visiting we can do with the Lord through prayer. He is always there to hear our prayer and He knows exactly what we need even before we ask.
We are so blessed!
Hey, bye for now,
Tim

friday yaps

Hey, so sorry so late! We got home late and then I had a crazy time trying to sleep last night. Then, to top it off, i did the blog then lost it somehow. So, here it goes again. A little update.
The trip to Kelowna went smoothly. Our friend Dan Barber drove us down and we stayed over at Corwin Smid's parents. That was awesome! Then we met the specialists who are overseeing my treatment. (Radiation and chemo) Again, these guys said that this tumor is so so rare. It is actually most comman in children. Those of you who always tell me to grow up or wonder if i will ever grow up, really do know me.
They sure can't give us any hope with this situation.(I mean really) But, we know who gives hope and that is where our focus is. Our hope is in the Lord and we are so thankful for everything He has done in our lives. Once again, we are believing God for a miracle! I found out that i have to go back to Kelowna on Tuesday and Wednesday for MRI and ct scan in prep for treatment. Then, it's back home and then they have me scheduled for September 18 to start treatment. I will be receiving 6 weeks of treatment in Kelowna and Esther is planning to be with me during it all.
She is taking a leave from her work and I am so thankful for her support.
Once again, thanks so much for all the kind works and prayers from you all.
Talk to you soon, Tim