Memories

Hello Everyone,

I just sent an email to our Swiss friends and all of a sudden I was flooded with memories of Tim and I. Now I am crying, I miss him so much, I wonder, will it ever stop? I look around me and I see pictures of us everywhere, 27 yrs. of love and memories and 4 amazing children.

When we were in Switzerland, Tim took me for a walk to a monestary in the woods, it was so refreshing (cool, it was a hot day that day). It was so beautiful there, we took an number of pictures. At one point we saw a very small dog trying to carry a huge stick, twice it's size! It looked so funny, we were laughing and took a pic. After our walk Tim took me for an ice cream, you know Tim and ice cream, loves it!! It was so special, just to be alone with him. Now, I sit here alone, crying and missing him, my heart is aching.

Just recently, I watched a movie, "the wedding singer", at the end he sings to her, he sings, "I want to grow old with you," I always thought that I would grow old with Tim, but instead he is gone too young.We were suppose to minister together, share together, grow old together, watch our children get married and enjoy our grandchildren together. I miss his big hugs and comforting words. I miss his laughter and crazy ways. I miss him making me laugh. I miss his support in making decisions for the children. I miss him!! He was such a good, good, loving, caring man, I know that I was very spoilt. I thank God for all the precious memories and that Tim is in the presence of God, although I wish right now he could be in my presence. He'd be up making breakfast, being "excessively" happy, tapping the counter with his knife (waiting for the toast) and singing a Jesus song!! Oh, how I miss that! Then he would call us to breakfast at 8am. and we would sit down, have breakfast while he read us devotions, then he would pray for us, pray for our day. We would all pray the "Our Father, Which Art in Heaven..." And our day would begin. A great way to start any day! I hope you all start your day this way because it does make a difference, it keeps your focus on the Lord and gives you peace, strength and help, where you need it.

Once again, thanks for your love, prayers and support. I know I will be okay, the tears that are falling today only bring healing. Our God is faithful, loving and true. He will help me get though this day and the next. I comfort myself by thinking, "Tim is in the presence of the Lord and he is very happy!"

Quick note: I still need a car for Josiah, perferably this weekend because he is coming home today, yahoo!! Please pray for this miracle.Also, I will be seeing a lawyer today for advice on my ICBC claim. ICBC is being a bit of a pain. I don't want to cause problems, I just want to get what I need to get. I feel I am being reasonable. Pray that they will settle soon, I don't want to take this into 2008, I've been through enough in the last years. Thanks for your prayers!!

Lot of love and blessings to you all!! Esther