On the road again!

Hello everyone,
I arrived home safe and sound with my 1998 VW Golf on Mon. evening. It drove very well and I got incredible gas mileage! I got it inspected because you can't insure it until it is. They spent 2hrs. or more inspecting it, they must have used a fine toothe comb!! Anyways, it did not pass inspection, the upper strut plates were worn out. I got them replaced, so now I have to go back to get the okay. Then, I can insure it and I will be on my way to Washington to visit Hanna and Leeland. I am looking forward to spending sometime with them and going to their church, it is so alive and moving in the spirit of God! After a few days I will be going to visit in Ephrata, to visit friends and sisters. Rachelle will be getting home on Sun. and Joel will be here Tues. and the Boys and I will be home Thurs. It will be so nice to be all together again!! We hope to go out to some lake.
Mom and Dad are doing good, the garden they put here is fantastic, I had a feed of beet tops (I made a salad). Of course it is difficult for them, I can't even imagine, I don't want to imagine, what it would feel like to loose a child. I know how much I miss Tim but how much more do they ache. We are thankful that we have the Lord to comfort us. He constantly reminds me that Tim is rejoicing in his presence. This really helps me. Sometimes I am crying and I think of the joy Tim brought me, I think of something he has said or done that was so funny and then I smile with tears. I can't help myself, were talking Tim Wade, the little guy that always could make us laugh, that could always find something good in everything. He could even get me to smile when I was furious with him, I didn't think that was fair, since I really was mad at him and I wanted to stay that way for a while. Well, it sure makes me realize even more that Joy is what we need to bring each other. Forgive one another, reach out and love, because in the scope of things, it really isn't worth being upset, it actually shortens your day. So, if you want to be happy go do something silly and make someone laugh or at least try to get them to crack a smile!! This is what Tim use to do. Seriously, he would tell me that someone looked up happy, sad or grouchy and he would tell me that he was going to go over there and see if he could make them smile. Sometimes it was a big challenge but he was up to it! Then he'd say,"it was a tough one, but they cracked a smile." What a crazy guy!! Just think, if we all made a point of doing that this world and our lives would always be a happy place to be. Truly Tim had the joy of the Lord and I want to carry that torch and I want to challenge you to do the same. Of course that involves, "laying down your life for your friends." Take your focus off you, look to the needs of others and before you know it your feeling better and your problems become smaller. Tim sure left me with tons of memories and a truly incredible Godly example of how I should live, Thank you Timmy, I love you and I miss you!! I miss not being able to share my joys and concerns,I miss not being able to cuddle him at night and reaching for him in the morning. I miss his great hugs and slobbery kisses,but I will be okay.
I was going thru his busy drawer and right on top was a plastic shoppers drug mart bag and in it was my anniversary card for this year. He was thinking about me as usual, I cried for a long time. It said, "for my wife on our anniversary. I want you to know that I love you for being the best wife any man could hope for."Now I am crying again. He was planning ahead. He didn't quite make it, he passed away 2 wks before our 26th. ann. What a sweet heart, what a thoughtful sweet little person and he's my husband! Did you know that he was crazy about me. He loved me more than I can imagine. I was spoiled, cared for and dearly loved, I didn't really deserve it, I was such a challenge to him.He lived the character of God! That's what I am going to do too!!
Blessings to you all!! Thank you for your love and comments!
Praising God for His love and goodness! Esther