Keeping Busy

Hello Everyone,

Josiah made it to Kelowna safe and sound, I was a little worried for a while. He was having a few challenges with his car but now it is running great, we are so thankful for the great deal we got on it.

Joel called the other day and he is doing great. He got a new job and is very happy to have it. Rachelle handed in her 2 week notice for the Child Development Center and has some resumes out. She should be hearing soon as to which job she has.

My work at the school remains interesting. I took my first aid course on Oct.19 (Fri), and the next Mon. I was already practicing. The grade7 students had immunizations that morning and one of the girls fainted and had a seizer, so I had to deal with it. Then, another girl fainted, in the same class!! There were a number of kids that got sick so we called the health nurse to come back and they did. The next day ,one of the maintance men had a pipe hit him in the mouth and cut his lip open, so I was called in again! I put on the rubber gloves, checked out the wound and covered it to make sure it stayed clean while he went to emergency to get stitches. Yesterday, I had a little boy come in with his wrist all deformed, I iced it and put a sling on and called the mother, definately broken. He is now in Kamloops getting surgery on it, it was a pretty bad break. So, I guess you can say that I have been using my first aid regularly, lol!

This Sat. is the YFC annual fundraising banquet. It will not be easy for our family but we will get through it. I still have a hard time waking up, looking over at Tim's spot and not having him there. At night, I feel the same emptiness. It just doesn't seem right that he's not there. Sometimes I just lay there and cry for a while, or think about him and some of the thing he would say. I can't seem to sleep on "his" side, maybe one day I will.

Thanks for your prayers. Blessings to you all, Esther

Answered Prayer

Hello!! Thank you for your prayers. On Fri. at work, our secretary asked me if I was still looking for a car for Josiah, I said yes and she told me that her son had a car for sale. It use to be her car 2 yrs. ago and her son bought it from her. She told me all about it and I actually remembered how it looked. I was so excited!! It even had winter tires with rims!! It had everything that we had been praying for. So, today we went up to Prince George, looked at the car, took it for a drive and bought it!! Josiah drove it to Kelowna today, I hope he calls soon, it's 8pm. and he left in the afternoon. He said he would call when he got home.

Thanks for your prayers. I'll stay in touch.

With Love, Esther

Memories

Hello Everyone,

I just sent an email to our Swiss friends and all of a sudden I was flooded with memories of Tim and I. Now I am crying, I miss him so much, I wonder, will it ever stop? I look around me and I see pictures of us everywhere, 27 yrs. of love and memories and 4 amazing children.

When we were in Switzerland, Tim took me for a walk to a monestary in the woods, it was so refreshing (cool, it was a hot day that day). It was so beautiful there, we took an number of pictures. At one point we saw a very small dog trying to carry a huge stick, twice it's size! It looked so funny, we were laughing and took a pic. After our walk Tim took me for an ice cream, you know Tim and ice cream, loves it!! It was so special, just to be alone with him. Now, I sit here alone, crying and missing him, my heart is aching.

Just recently, I watched a movie, "the wedding singer", at the end he sings to her, he sings, "I want to grow old with you," I always thought that I would grow old with Tim, but instead he is gone too young.We were suppose to minister together, share together, grow old together, watch our children get married and enjoy our grandchildren together. I miss his big hugs and comforting words. I miss his laughter and crazy ways. I miss him making me laugh. I miss his support in making decisions for the children. I miss him!! He was such a good, good, loving, caring man, I know that I was very spoilt. I thank God for all the precious memories and that Tim is in the presence of God, although I wish right now he could be in my presence. He'd be up making breakfast, being "excessively" happy, tapping the counter with his knife (waiting for the toast) and singing a Jesus song!! Oh, how I miss that! Then he would call us to breakfast at 8am. and we would sit down, have breakfast while he read us devotions, then he would pray for us, pray for our day. We would all pray the "Our Father, Which Art in Heaven..." And our day would begin. A great way to start any day! I hope you all start your day this way because it does make a difference, it keeps your focus on the Lord and gives you peace, strength and help, where you need it.

Once again, thanks for your love, prayers and support. I know I will be okay, the tears that are falling today only bring healing. Our God is faithful, loving and true. He will help me get though this day and the next. I comfort myself by thinking, "Tim is in the presence of the Lord and he is very happy!"

Quick note: I still need a car for Josiah, perferably this weekend because he is coming home today, yahoo!! Please pray for this miracle.Also, I will be seeing a lawyer today for advice on my ICBC claim. ICBC is being a bit of a pain. I don't want to cause problems, I just want to get what I need to get. I feel I am being reasonable. Pray that they will settle soon, I don't want to take this into 2008, I've been through enough in the last years. Thanks for your prayers!!

Lot of love and blessings to you all!! Esther

Update

Hello Everyone,

It seems that we continue being stretched in our walk with God. On Sept.24 Josiah was in another accident. I thank the Lord that he is ok. The car was totalled and ICBC gave me what I had paid for it, so now it's back to car hunting!

Thanks giving was filled with mixed emotions. Missing Tim but thankful to have all the kids home. Jos came home Fri. evening (10pm., from Kelowna) and Joel (2am., from Victoria). I felt so blessed to have them around me, they are such amazing children. I love the way that they get along and love each other. It was so evident as I watched them over the weekend. I am so blessed! Thank you Jesus!! I am also very blessed to have Mom and Dad living here in WL. We all had dinner together as a family on Sun. and had a great time visiting.

I have not been able to go to the grave site yet. Joel has been the first one to go, he went on Sun. It was very emotional as I expected. Each step is healing and we need to take these steps.

One of our friends, Candy Hilton, made 3 poster board collages of Tim and our family. The pictures are great and the captions are wonderful. Each time I look at them the tears flow, I know that this is healing too.

I will try to stay in touch better. It was suggested to me that shorter more frequent entries would be better so I will try that.

Thank you for your love and support, Love and Prayers, Esther