sizzling sunday

Hi and how are you on this fine Christmas eve day? Yes, i can hardly believe my eyes that it is Christmas tomorrow. I am so excited about it. Usually i am quite calm and relaxed but this time i am right pumped. It seems to me that this illness thing that has come my way has done something for me that i never would have thought of before. I just don't know what it is. Sounds weird, eh? I know it does. Just lately, i have been trying to put my finger on it. I just don't know.
What do i know? I know that God loves me unconditionally, I know that i am so blesssed in every way, i have an awesome family, i have an amazing job(ministry),
great friends, special community, awesome home, ok transportation, too much stuff,
amazing parents. Wow, that's alot of blessing and fulfillment in my life. Just from that little exercise, i can see clearly that i am blessed in a huge way.
Now, i just have to figure out what the difference is for me this go around at Christmas. I think i have it. This go around is a go around that i was thinking might not be there for me. When i was told about the cancer illness back in August,
i remember my mind racing ahead to every event with family and friends that i wouldn't be at again. I remember planning my funeral and not missing out a single detail. I remember how i started to feel scared, even though i knew that God would take care of my family. Yes, i had some lonely nights in the hospital. Esther would come and be with me during the day and stay extra long, but those late night times were just brutal. I remember having to get right upset at the enemy my soul,and do some serious prayer. I would feel so much better after.
Now, i have completed all of the cancer treatments, i have been on this special diet for at least 6 weeks, i have had all kinds of prayer and read all kinds of scripture and shared with so many different people from all over. I have come to the conclusion that God knows exactly how many days i have left of this place called earth and i am going to make the best of them. Of course, i can only do that by totally relying on the Lord for His strength, His peace, His love and joy. I'm sure there is more but i need a break from this blog and so do you. I just know that we are praying for a total healing miracle in my life and there is no reason why that can't take place. So, feel free to join the journey of healing and to God be the glory!!!!! That's what i have to say about that.
Bye for now,
Tim